and i am not and i have not been
and she is mine and we find eachother having been
and thoughts bounce around and drip into puddles as eyes, i look into them
and what can't be hasn't been
and what won't be isn't and
i can't keep doing this
but i love you because you say you love me and it feels good and i feel relieved from all the stress from not knowing what people are thinking of me or if i'm accepted into anything but what is directly inspired from me
and i know i love you too because of this... and i'm sure because of other things too
and i do know what i will do
but i don't know if it's right because i don't feel good
i feel sad to my stomach 90% of the time because i don't know what i'm doing with my life
but i look into what i'm doing it for
for you, to be with you
so that i can ... feel happy and ok with the idea that i'm not ok... because you love me
because you touch me and are smiling
and because i'm smiling too
and there's no guilt
just me and you

Wow. Nice.