Speak easy, speak nothing
Speak a million words in a million ways
Speak it all to me without solving the problems we see
Speak it all but we’ll say nothing
In a tangled mess all your big words from your tattered dictionary
Flow from your mouth to my head and you think I need an explanation
Only if it’s of your complication because I own a dictionary too
And I’ve read it through and through and once again just to discern

But I’ve figured if you speak nothing, I mean really speak nothing
Maybe I’ll die, I’ll let my feelings die
Maybe this tie of all connections we have will break off and float to the sky
I’ll speak easy of a love from the past
I’ll be old, but it won’t last
I’ll see options, so many that I‘ll have, but I won’t make them my opportunity
For something else to have but not have, to love and not stop
And be hurt again
No thank you, I’m done with that ball and chain

But I can pretend, I can climb the mountain, from the top I can shout
Be easy, be free, look at me, but I’ll just speak nothing, I won’t be free
I’ll just imagine that you weren’t for me
You say if I want the best, go love the rest
But not the one that isn’t good enough, but settle, please settle
You must find love though it’s not everything
And you must settle, baby, please settle
Best and settle don’t sound habitual, not together side by side
So I’m confused just a little and this is how nothing is spoken
Contradictions and round about ways to show your affection is a token

Speak easy, speak nothing
Speak a million words in a million ways
Speak it all to me without solving the problems we see
Speak it all but we’ll say nothing
In a tangled mess all your big words from your tattered dictionary
Flow from your mouth to my head and you think I need an explanation
Only if it’s of your complication because I own a dictionary too
And I’ve read it through and through and once again just to discern

But I’ve figured if you speak nothing, I mean really speak nothing
Maybe I’ll die, I’ll let my feelings die

this had a real moving quality and obviously an infinite sadness
the first parts reminded me of a Panics song which is truly beautiful about supressing all the things you want to say and should have said. i love that you mention people using big words to disarm the other. this is really good writing kelly and would make for a pretty great song...

Thanks a lot, Renae. Glad you like it, and I appreciate your response. You highlighted some of my favorite parts. And a Panics song? I'm not sure I'm familiar with the group.

i like the third verse... the part that renae highlighted and the rest of the verse as well. especially the use of the word 'settle' so many times in succession... it gives the impression of desperation or pleading (you seem to be really good at conveying that feeling in your writing )

once again, youve got something here that could be placed on the soundtrack to my life at the moment. we must be on a similar wavelength, at least for the time being. heres to both of us getting out of here.

Thanks Ryu. Yeah, I wish we could get on another wavelength together. Though I wrote this over two years ago now. Probably about two and a half years ago. Problem is I'm going through relationship trouble again.

same here. im in a new version of it... this time im the one who is too good for it. not to sound like that, but this girl is a handful in a lot of really immature ways. anger problems like you wouldnt believe. i dont like to walk on eggshells around anyone. there are so many wonderful things about her as well, but at the end of the day, i think shes a negative force in my life.

Sorry to hear that. It's a terrible situation. And anyone who knows me knows that I'm not egotistical at all, but both relationships that I've been writing about have involved me being the person who is too good. Both men would agree even if they knew I wouldn't find that information out.

so i was right about us being on the same wavelength.... more so than i knew.

Yep. Although I'm sure I got myself in a bind way more. Stupid really. It's over. We are friends, but meh. Hard to see a friend as a friend when you love them as more and were doing much more than what friends do not too long ago. That's meant emotionally, physically, and whatever else.

wow. me too. not that having this kind of thing in common is a good thing. im so tired.... emotionally, which has manifested itself in me being physically exhausted. i dont really know what to do next. i know that it will all be fine (or at least different) eventually, but im not sure what the path from here to there looks like.

At least you can see it as being fine in the end. I hope so. I can't really. Different, yes. Fine, no. I'm a doomsayer I guess. I mean all signs of my life point to being good I suppose, but this is tough. And it gets tiring. You are very right. Physically and emotionally painful at that.

I've read that several times and actually it's quite hard for me to say something about it, hard to explain - it's just different from what I usually read and write, but I really like this one, it seems to flow very nicely and it's really able to carry a lot of emotion in a way that not only gives the reader a perspective of how the writer could have felt but also to relate emotionally. If that makes sense. I'm really not good at that.

In the future, I'll just stick to

Thanks a lot. Considering I like the lyrics of yours I've read and remember plus your covers and such it carries weight that you approve.