Id like to keep my other thread at 888 in "Peace" and if anyone reads this and decides to not honor my wishes I know for sure is a total prick who would actually break the "Peace"...anyway

...so Im starting a new one...

LMFAO... "Ride it like I stole it"... fuuuuuck..... it was mine to begin with and now its EVERYBODYS

hey...


I love that song...

haha I actually like the Jimmy Buffet collaboration too...

Cold hearted and numb
the darkness gives way to a slow dawn
no more is the inspiration
Ive given it all away
starved and blocked by humanity's sorrow
becomes my own
crows call a forbidding time to heal
endlessness in their victim stew
it never comes
exhausting me
stealing your promises to my soul
stripping down
me
broken an bare
embracing what is left of this rape
hold me in your graces once more
as I will lie bleeding in your arms
in the sun
on the stairs

wish for happiness
slipping into oblivion
traveling worlds upon worlds
water and land
only looking for an easement of the mind
like a white wrap
of a silent fallen snow
a knot and a nook
where the rabbit rests
within a fallen tree in the forest
in a place is peace becomes
a union of nothingness
ancient and future radios play
false lies contorting the stream
a delight finally comes in tremors of truth
venom hating every step
of who I am

How long does a race take to complete?
a human race
a sad race
circles for which there is no where to go
so there you are ten or fifteen years from now
I see you...
I see you here
I see you there
Im tired of watching fools
here and there
so when does a shovel become
finally enlightened and changing your stance
figuring out what was important all along
see, we made up forgotten rules from long ago
some of which we dont even remember but still must follow
your hate and your hate
kills
jealousy drowns and suffocates
I have done nothing...
out of innocence and pain
asked the universe but to be finally brought together
with one the person who heals me the most
understands me the most
loves me the most
requests were made at a time
even if for a faceless and timeless whoever
that may be
my angel ... my dreams
all of which I assume the world thinks I do not deserve...
and so he came to answer my prayers
as the world turned upside down
it is not I tuning it sideways for I have lived
a long time without
I have patience... my love is eternal
it all of you and your fears and not letting things come to be
all your bullshit which makes the towers
the evil, the walls ...
stomping on good things and wishes
never letting life
the life that only we we can make together
fruit and flower into something beautiful
so ends the human race.
so see... my failure becomes your failure
my sucess becomes your sucess
but the world is too selfish to see
all that

silence and world stood still
crystal clusters of white
fell from a mottled canvas of grey
for me alone
the tall brush bent under its weight
arching together
into an innocent wooded cathedral
painted and beautiful
welcoming me to be the first
in a warm unstepped aisle of white
quietly in my lost wonderland
begs me to look through its windows
of plain colors browns and blues
my mind tired of its daily beating
hearing only my breath
finally summoned and pierced
my heart with peace

Yesterday, I pondered the thought of writing about my life. I decided to walk in the footprints of a man I didnt know. Stepping or hopping into the long gait of his footprints in the snow... just wondering what his path was like. Jack Kerowac or Chris McCandless everybody loves a good read on great spiritual elightenment paths as is they live vicariously through them to find themselves. Maybe its just refreshing to themselves that other people like to look at life differently.

Although some of my experience could possibly classified as science fiction!

in my slumber
i went to someplace
I cant remember
but it was a good place
I died as I laid in my bed
this morning
my tired soul awoken
once again to this life
to feel my heart beat
like a kick start
a natural defribulation
my thoughts about it
I didnt even even care
if I awoke from the dream
or if my heart started again

Hey! Im off again. I wish everyone well. Im going to the shores of the Atlantic for awhile to visit a friend. Someone always needs my help. Maybe find gold, maybe hit the lottery.... maybe just be me. Ive enjoyed my stay here. I thank everyone who accepted me as me. Im glad the world had become an open book once more. I hope everyone secured the places that they needed to be. I need a vacation ... from my vacation ... from my vacation.

Im extremely estatic you came into my life. Im glad we can talk anytime near or far. Im happy what we've done. Im excited that we can make a new future. When you figure it all out. Dont worry you come back for me. You already have, If we've done it once. Im sure it will happen again. You know Im always here. Maybe youll come knocking on my door once more after we've hopped and skipped over many rainbows and dreams to be together.

Im glad of all others who have come into my life good and bad. Too bad some dont know better. I feel sorry for them. Ive walked with the purest heart and mind for you. For you all. Because I love you. I have no greater love than for you and my fellow mankind... no matter how dastardly they make things and fustrated they make me. For there is peace, peace within myself and within my love for you.

and "off" I go...

Thanks to everyone to let me write crazy cryptic messages to the world. Thanks for letting me be me. I appreciate that. Thank you. I hope you all find where you are going. Peace and Love, Tina

I am glad "we" can do great things together.

Im tired of all the haters.

I wonder if this guy would marry me? Well, marriage to confining...

the thing is you can sit there and talk all you want, but the hardest obstacle is getting together and getting past everyone's bullshit... is why its important to have clear mind and balance and peaceable refute the garbage reality that the world and others around us wishes to feed us.

lol... thanks Jorge...

NO LIE. I'm gonna miss this nutcase if she's really gone.

Of course.. everybody misses me when Im gone... Im the sunshine of their lives.

Twist in history for me today... after all these years and studies of mine that Nostrodamus lost his whole family to the plague and dies alone. He now has a son!


Shamanee!

Anyone want to meet me for drinks in Minneapolis tonight? lol....

PM Doug RR.

I've had many drinks in the Minneapolis airport