do you have it?

i feel i do; actually, in the general sense, more than i ever have, it's weird

Listen:

I'm going to be one of those ten people who get into the Stanford Ph.D program fully funded, and I'm going to be published before that.

Bitch.

i like it

i'm gonna put on ten pounds by the time the summer is over, lean weight

and get a's in all my classes next quarter

and hopefully fuck more

but if none of this happens

well, as john cougar would say,

life goes on

Not really. I'm pretty happy-go-lucky.

me too

but i find it a lot easier to self motivate nowadays

although i guess i've always been able to, but not to this degree

as my grandma used to put, I just waltz through life and quietly make things happen.

I can't remember if this is the reason I just looked up the song drive by incubus

good idea i'll do the same

I think it's a little hard for me to do so because everything just seems to fall into my lap.

there's only so much waiting you can do

mirite?

thats something i need to take into account on some other issues though for sure

I mean sure, I could get by doing bare minimum and probably have a great life, but fuck that, fuck that. I want real things

I am satisfied with my drive I think.

You're right. But I have yet to learn this.